Atheistic Musings - April 1994 - by MrM

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Where is the God that I knew?
What has he let me become?
What for my hell is he gonna do?
Where is the god of my youth?

Where is this God I believed in?
Who cleansed my blood, and freed me from sin?
Am I ever gonna see him again?
Or am I just a fool?

CHORUS:
Believin' ain't easy when you have doubts.
Why do I wonder what its all about?
Sometimes I try so hard, I just wanna shout...
But believin' ain't easy.

Where is this God that they say
Made my world, and now he's gonna make me pay?
Why should I pay heed to that God anyway,
Like they say that I should do?

The God of my youth, He's gone today...
Along with all the truths I thought He brought my way.
Maybe I'll find Him, maybe I should just pray...
He might just answer some other day.

CHORUS:
What will it take to make me see?
A pillar of smoke, or a flaming tree?
What kind of miracle is God going to give to me?
It's gonna take alot to change my creed.
Divine revelation, that's what I need.
A bolt of lightning,that will make my heart heed,
A stairway to heaven, or a magic seed...
Something that will make these blind eyes see...

"Blessings come to those that wait"
Can't I be blessed with just a little faith?
If it won't come soon it may be to late.
Too late to save me.

CHORUS:
I'd sell my soul if I could just be sure,
To know there's a god, and just to feel pure;
Or, to know there's none; but its so obscure,
And believin' ain't easy.

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