Sandcastles - December 18th, 2000 - by MrM

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A dark haired angel with your beautiful brown eyes...
They worked their way deep inside my soul.
Memories of you and what just one look from you
Could do to me way back then 

still make me feel I'm losing control!

But I will not have you and you will not have me.
We both ran away from that dream... that we let die
Like sandcastles built upon an incoming tide.

I never told you. 

Sometimes I still look for a reason
That's worthy of everything that we will never have.
A fear you would leave me 

like I've seen you leave so many before me...
Knowing it would kill me to lose what we could've had.

So I made a choice based on my conviction
That I would stay true to the one 

to whom I'd made my commitments.
So I made a choice to stare down temptation
So that I would be the better man 

and prove that I could stand...
What a consolation!

But I gave away everything I wanted
For that set of some principles that I held so vaunted.
So I give my all - but I am never satisfied...
Because I know what I need... to feel... inside.

And now I'm haunted.
I'm crumbling now right before my eyes.
But I still can't say what I know I have to hide.
Because to tell the truth would kill someone.
And I'd rather die than be the one who kills her.

But you're the one there in my dreams, 

and then the light comes on.
And then those dreams they fade away silently, 

and then they're gone.

So I force a smile as I think what might have been
Then I brace to face my reality of everything the way it is

And I try not to think about the things I try to hide
About just what the truth is - and about how I am lying.
About everything I'm doing - About everything we're not
About just how I'm abusing my heart with all we have not got.

I await the deluge to tear apart my pride.
To rip away my foundation leaving me no place to hide.
Just like a sandcastle built upon an incoming tide.

CHORUS:

I never told you. Sometimes I still look for a reason
That's worthy of everything that we will never have.

But your the one there in my dreams 
and then the light comes on.
And then those dreams they fade away silently, 

and then they're gone.

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